Saturday, November 27, 2010

So very thankful

I have many things to be thankful for this year but the greatest thing in my life right now is:

Everything I do is for him and I wouldn't be where I am in life if he weren't here with me. I am also very thankful to all of the people in my life that help me be the best mom I can be to him. I may question myself some times and wonder if what I am doing is right by him, but then I sit back and really look at the whole picture and realize that he has a TON of people who really, truly care for him and they wouldn't be in his life if I didn't have the need for it. That makes me sad and thankful at the same time! I am glad we needed the extra help and I am glad that I have found such great people to love and care for Anthony.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010


I am happy to report that all of the new arrangements have been working out well for us. Anthony seems happier now that he is in a home environment while I'm at work. He gets a lot more one on one attention now which I think is something he needed.

I am a lot less stressed when I go to work because I know he is in good hands. He really loves going there and I know he is treated well at each of the sitters' houses.

I keep going back and forth about keeping Anthony in pre-k. He enjoys it for the most part, but since I've been volunteering at his school (in a different classroom than his) I see just how chaotic it can be and just how little attention each of the kids gets. Kids generally get looked past if they are being good and the kids who act up get all the attention. I know, I know, it's like that in every classroom. Still.

It doesn't help that there is a kid in his class who beats up on him and calls him names repeatedly. At least once a week I hear a story about how the kid hit him in the head with a plastic rake or punched him in the stomach or called him a crybaby or stupid.

Last week, Anthony got in trouble at school because he finally punched the kid back after being punched twice and called a crybaby. He was so upset for getting put on yellow because of it (a behavior chart thing they have at school) that he cried for over an hour after we came home.

I don't know. He really likes school other than when these things happen. He always looks forward to going but I feel like crap for continuing to take him whenever I hear the stories about him getting hurt. :( I don't know. Maybe I just feel this way because I feel like I hardly see him? I wish this program were a half -day program like I originally thought it was.